Highs and Lows

My week this week has had some highs and lows as most weeks do, My flatmates have all been on holiday and i've been left in the flat by myself (sniff sniff). Nah its not that bad really my sister came and stayed with me for a few days and they my friend nay came and stayed with me too so i wasn't that lonley. It was quite fun having the whole flat to myself i moved the tv up into my bedroom so i could be lazy and watch it in bed though i must admit that it was a bit of a distraction. Its back in its place now and Cara and Ange are back in the flat with me, it will be strange having everyone back in the flat after being so used to having none of them around.
At the moment though i seem to have no motivation or energy to do anything!! I've slept in heaps and been late to course more than once. Monday i couldn't be bothered getting out of bed and i felt all groggy and fluey so i didn't even bother going to class. Then on tuesday at work i had to supervise and i got really mad at this girl that i was in charge of cause she was trying to take control when i was away doing a job and she wrote on my cleaning roster and was just annoying everyone, I feel real sorry for her and try to be nice to her most of the time but this time i just lost it. Even the duty manager was getting cross with her so i had to tell her off, i felt so bad after though cause i hate conflict and telling people off and she just kept dennying everything. Then on wednesday i was being ordered around by one of my class mates, she made me be her assistant and when i tried to help so just told me off. Lost was pretty cool on wednesday night tho brother flat and co came around. Yesterday i got real bored and went over to visit jane even though i'm supposed to be working on an assignment i really didn't feel in the mood for doing anything. Little things keep bugging me like cleaning and dishes and that, I dunno whats wrong with me i tried calling out to god but he just seems so distant right now. Anyways i'm finally on holiday now yay for 2 whole weeks so thats something positive to be thinking about. I'm going to christchurch next week with my family too catch up with relations and my uncle and cousin that are comming over from england i'm really looking foward to that cause i haven't seen them in like 5 years. Dad said he might take us skiing when were there yay haven't done that for ages either. But i carn't go shopping :-( cause i'm still trying to save my money for chile. Its so hard i didn't realise it would be so hard i keep having these unexpected bills popping up then i have to pay for food and other toiletry essesntials grr it never ends.