Bummer

Grr i just write a whole post and it got wiped and didn't appear on my blog!!

Teacher's Collage

After alot of thinking and pondering on what i want to do next year I decided on Teacher's Collage, I have always had the idea in the back of my mind since high school but didn't want to rush straight into it unless i was certain. So i have applied for a Bachelor of Teaching 0-8yrs.
I am also hoping to get a Teach NZ scholarship, which i applied for last year but they sent it back to me and said I had to apply for it in August as they were only taking mid year intakes which sucked coz i wanted to get my away early as I thought this would give me a better chance of getting it. Now i'll probably forget to reapply!! Since i'm so disorganised grr, My desk has been such as mess for like ages and its been on my list of things to do for a while including sorting out my files and i finally managed this afternoon to sort most of it out!! I never realised how much paper and junk i could collect over 4 months i really need to start throwing things out straight away but i'm like i never know when i may need them again!! Lol so you can imagine how much stuff i had when i had to move out of my room at home and into my flat!! I threw out like a whole weelie bin full on mostly old school books and other junk. How do people keep desks so organised?? If you have guys have any tips i will try and put them to use! Oh yeah and another intesting fact me, neelam and hannah were doing personality tests this week and i discovered that i came out equal for both sanguine and phlegmatic. My sister is staying with me this week coz my flatmates are away for the holidays except hannah who is back for a couple of days finishing of ECC. So if there is anyone else around for the holidays were should do a get together if you keen. I'm not on holidays yet though my start in two weeks.

Yay I'm going to Chile!

Yay i'm so excited!! I applied to go on a missions trip and it was either going to be India or Chile!! India because i went there when i was 13 with my family and i thought it would be really interesting to go back there, maybe see the people that we meet up with again. Chile because it was something completly different and from the little bit of information that i learned it seem like a really cool place with a great culture and would be a totally new experience for me. Not too much of a shock that i would be able to handle and not get too homesick!! I think that if i was in India i would miss my family too much because there is so much to adjust too even though i'd allready been there it would be different without my family. So anyways i was praying to god asking him to make it clear to me which place i was too go to and i just wasn't getting anywhere so then i started thinking maybe God doesn't want me to go on a missions trip, maybe the timings not right and i don't evenknow if i can sacrifice some things like buying clothes in order to save for it. Sometimes i think that New Zealand its self is a mission field and we should be evanglising to our own kiwi nation before we go out of our own country. But what is its too late by then???. Anyway carmi rang me on sunday too tell me that the India trip had been cancelled because there wasn't enough interest but i could still go on the Chile one yay!! I was so nervous that i wouldn't been selected either cause they asked some really tough questions.
But i'm so glad that its finally clear when i meant to go cause now there is only one place i can go if that makes sense!! No i just have to start getting the money together and saving and fundraising and praying!. But hey if God wants me to go then i'm willing to give up some sacrifices yes i know even clothes!!

Growth

At first,
She is nothing but a tiny seed,
With only the dark, damp soil for comfort,
She is embounded,
Her existence is minimal,
Encrusted in the ground,
She neither hears nor see's.

Slowly her feet find their path,
Breaking out of the soul shell,
Legs entwine,
Gasping for air,
Light is creeping through,
She reaches out towards it,
But it seems to back away.

Rising and Stretching,
Falling and Sinking,
She tries yet again,
With all force she breaks through,
The light explodes on her face,
Blinding her,
Her lungs fill with air,
A lound cry deafens her,
She feels defeated,
But something inside tells her,
She has won.

Thorns break out of her,
Protecting her hidden soul,
From the enemy that surrounds her.

In a sudden,
A cold wet, substance surrounds her,
It makes its way through her lifelike body,

She soaks it up,
Energy errups from her,
Bursting with happiness,
Buds of joy bleed out of her delicate form,
Then morph into beautiful blooms,
She is complete,
A tiny fragile Rose.

My Baptism

May 22nd I was Baptised!! I know alot of people were probably thinking FINALLY lol but i didn't want to do it untill i was totally sure i wanted to pursue a steady relationship with God.
The enemy has tried to keep me from being baptised but I have finally overcome him and handed my life over to God.
"The thief's purpose is to kill and destroy. My purpose is to give life in all its its fullness"
John 10:10

Official Post

Well that was a positive start to my new blog!! Thanks alot Jane!! Love you too Babe

I suck!!

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